I love how God works sometimes.
I've been needing a pick-me-up, and a reminder of why I'm moving to New York. A trip up there was the perfect way to do this, and boy oh boy did it change my plans.
I've been trying to work out the details of my big move in my head, and the closer it got, the scarier it got. When I landed at JFK, I was exhausted from having stayed up all night, then I had to fight the MTA as always to get to Ruth's to drop off my things. I tend to doubt my desire to move to the city every time I get on the trains for the first time...
As the day went on though, my exhausted delirious self began to change my opinion. I had some quality time with Ruth, which I haven't had in a long time, and we got to talk about the joys of teaching. Then I went into the city to show up at church, only to find out that no one was at church for the day. I called Chris to come hang out with me, and while I waited on him, I sat in Thomkins Square Park, and it all started to come back to me. The flowers were preparing to bloom, something I've never witnessed. My first exposure to this park was in the middle of winter when there was NO vegetation, much less beautiful flowers.
I had dinner with Chelsea, but by that point I could barely function. I slept 12 hours that night...
THEN the week really got started. We found out that all of the Graffiti summer missionaries fell through. This broke my heart. We jokingly discussed the idea of having me come up for the summer, but I didn't think anything of it.
The next day, I was waiting on the subway by myself, and admiring the people (if ever you ask me what is a must-do in the city, I will tell you people watching). Suddenly, the wheels started turning (thank's God, I love how he does this!). What if I saved every dime for the next month, and funded myself as a summer missionary! No, that's not possible, right?
Not only that, but that's only SIX WEEKS away, and I don't know that I'm ready to leave yet.... right??
These thoughts stuck with me throughout the day, and for some reason, I kept thinking maybe God was telling me something. I prayed about it a lot over the next couple of days, and what do you know, I started to feel comfortable with it. So comfortable in fact that I couldn't imagine going back home and NOT coming back in a matter of weeks.
So after much prayer, and consideration, I am now OFFICIALLY moving at the end of May. Scary, yes. Awesome and exciting, yes too.
My flights kept getting cancelled before I ever even left for the airport, and I got an extra day in the city as a result. A full 28 hours actually, which meant I got to stay for two days of after-school. It was sooo worth it. I may have missed a little bit more work than I would have liked, but God works in the most beautiful ways, and it even provided the opportunity for me to run into one of my favorite families at the airport before I left.
Please keep praying that I will have the discipline to save my money, and that the doors will continue to open. Please also pray for wisdom and guidance as I take this next step.